11:58 AM - Worm

another day of needing to lock in!!! but our friend is hopefully coming over today and i like him a lot :33 im kinda bored/lonely and i wanna socialize!! but like, in a productive multi-tasking way so that we stop procrastinating on important stuff! god, i really use a lot of exclamation marks when i type, huh? im only just starting to realize that lmao

anyway, i helped with some self-care stuff that we don't prioritize enough (brushing our teeth, wearing clothes that make us feel cute, etc). i feel like we just feel 'meh' all the time because we dont prioritize ourselves, we just do work and chores to please other people. like when we shower, its just to avoid grossing out other people, and not because it actually makes us feel refreshed. and like how sunny is obsessed with cleaning the entire house, but doesn't care about our own room because nobody else comes in here. it's a terrible way to be motivated, and it just makes us feel worse!!

and trust me, i'm no stranger to obsessing over what other people think of us. im still learning how to stop that! but like, this is our body and our life, y'know? if we're trying to accomplish something, it should be for our own wellbeing and satisfaction, and not just because we're ashamed of being 'lazy'. its hard to actually comprehend that, especially with sunny arguing in the background as i type, but maybe one day it'll be easier for all of us.

8:16 PM - Helix

not much happened today! the friend didn't come over because he got sick, so worm is pretty grumpy about that. we've also been having a nice time answering asks on tumblr. also, did a bunch of work on this site, including setting up this journal to be more organized! prism also added a page for himself, and i think it looks really cool.

ah, i just remembered we need to pack for the georgia trip tomorrow. im not really mentally prepared for it, and it sounds like it'll be exhausting, but it's fine. probably better than staying home all day.